Why I got away from motherhood content

I was having writer’s block, but not only that. I was having a hard time in motherhood. It started near Mother’s Day. Mothering had become beyond stressful navigating ridiculous tantrums, limited help at the time, struggling with coparenting and heavy financial issues. It was the first time I experienced a decent period of depression.

I remember trying to write a Mother’s Day post, but not being able to find the words to describe anything that I was feeling and going through. There was a level of resentment I was feeling towards single motherhood if I’m being honest and just to be clear, none of that was directed towards my child. Motherhood is hard. We know, but around that time I really struggled to keep afloat.

It’s important that I say at least this, so you all know why I had gotten away from motherhood content that I was pushing forth and where I actually started. It’s also important that you know that I’ve been trying to get back to motherhood content, but my writer’s block still exists. Honestly speaking, I think it is because I needed to acknowledge that circa Mother’s Day, I had the roughest time, showed myself little to no compassion, felt the after effects of an amazing event that placed me in a lot of financial stress and still had to show up to work and be a parent everyday. It was a fight that needed support—not really from family, but from moms who understood too. During that time, I did nothing but pour into Aiden. I couldn’t really do much for myself until something clicked in therapy and pulled me out of it.

Anyway, I share this informal post with you to let you know that I’m working on bringing you back the content you deserve. As I do that, you should know that it serves as a form of self-care for me and my life.

You can look forward to a post with 2019 highs and lows coming soon!