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So my goal is to really get real with you all. Mommyhood has been the most amazing experience for me thus far. My little one is the most inquisitive person I know. I’m so proud to see a strong sense of learning and curiosity implanted in him. But as we all know, there are the more so challenging times associated with mommyhood. It’s the moments where we don’t feel so perfect and even lack confidence in ourselves—which sometimes includes doubting our ability to be an amazing mama. That’s what I want to talk about. Those great moments and how to get there, but also those not so great moments and how to overcome them.

I want you all to walk through this with me because I definitely don’t have it all together myself. I’m a mother of a 1.5 year old active toddler boy and I feel as though I am constantly on the move.  However, when it comes to myself, I have become lazy. SO LAZY. So much that I didn’t care about my appearance amongst other things.

Before motherhood and even while pregnant actually, I maintained everything like CLOCKWORK. My hair, nails and waxes (eyebrows and everything else you could think of) were always regularly scheduled appointments. Sunday I’d get my nails done, waxes took place every 4 weeks, etc. But guess what happened, it wasn’t that important anymore. That time I used to take for myself, does not happen anymore. I don’t even recognize myself anymore half of the time. My eyebrows, OMG. Point being, I’m sure I’m not the only mommy who lost herself in mommyhood. Part of it has to do with my not wanting to take any time away from Aiden; not wanting to ask for too much help; and feeling as though I don’t “need” to spend money on those things FOR ME. But to be honest, that was and is much needed maintenance. Those are things that should be continuing FOR ME. I’m sure there are things that all moms have let go of postpartum, but listen, you have to maintain some sense of your former identity, right?

So here I am, all things Aiden. However, now that he’s slowly (maybe, it’s quickly) approaching 2 years old—I feel it’s time to redefine who I am, both as Courtney and Aiden’s mommy.

It’s time to talk! All things having to do with being a mommy and even how we take (or don’t take) time for ourselves to either try new things to regain our identities throughout mommyhood and increase a sense of self, while also being the best imperfect moms we can be.